so I think I'm done with this thing...its getting old and I never really have anything to talk about....

Sometimes I wish I could
just look in the mirror and be
proud of what I see, proud of
what I turned out to be, proud
to be just me...

her laughter- a cry for help
her smile- a symbol of her insecurities
her tears- the reality...

maybe she laughs
to cover up the tears
and her precious smile
is just to hide her fears

if only reality would stop breaking my heart

I am trying to figure out the exact moment my life got so messed up...

Days like this I just don't know what to do with myself....

Sometimes I don't know where
the bullshit ends & the truth begins...

Sick of people; no one's real
Sick of life; it sucks
Sick of trying; what's the point?
Sick of talking; no one listens
Sick of listening; it's all lies
Sick of thinking; just end up confused
Sick and tired; and no one cares...

Ever get the feeling the entire world is flying first class &
you're stuck with a folding chair in the baggage compartment?

well have a nice life everyone.....

Currently Listening Sixteen Stone By Bush see related

- Glycerine

hi everyone.....

alright so Brandon left for basic on Friday. It sucks...its been hard...I miss him so much. This is like one of the hardest things i've had to do. I'm still so scared that he won't want to be with me when he gets back. I know I shouldn't worry about that..but I just do.

I miss looking in your eyes...

I know that we're together even though we're far apart

He hasn't even been gone a week but it feels like hes been gone soo long... i'm soo used to being able to call him or go see him. Its soo hard. So I got him 4 shirts on tuesday..

yeah so I got fired from subway hahaha I was gonna quit anyways..stupid bitch... oh well I might either work at Almost Famous or Beauty Mart...not quite sure yet although I must say i'm pretty excited.

well I don't have much to say so Have a nice week!!

-Trish

<== That has got to be my favorite picture yet!! its soo cute!!

well anyways Brandons back from his church trip ...but he leaves on the 4th for basic training for 3 months  ...It kind of sucks but when he gets back our relationship will be even stronger!

[S e e i N g]
 your face
[b R i G h T e N s]
up my day..
[H e a R i N g]
your voice
takes my troubles away
[S e e i N g]
you smile...
gives me joy to see..
you mean
[M o R e]
to me...
[D a Y . a F t E r . D a Y]

I think its really starting to get to me that hes leaving...i know he'll be back but he'll be gone for awhile...i'm going to miss him like crazy. I've been thinking about him leaving soo much lately and I hate it because I think like what if he doesnt want to be with me when i get back and stuff like that...all the negative stuff. I just need to think positve right now. Thinking negativly isnt going to help me at all. But what can you do when all you pretty much think about is the negatives.

well i'm not feeling that well so i think i'm gonna get going...have a good night!! later!

-Trish

welllllll hello there

sooo this weekend...lets see .... got to the lake thursday ...my uncle came down he was really sick...had to go to the hospital and stay over night...dropped my phone in the lake....hmm... what else...oh met some people that was cool.

10,000 miles apart or side by side we'll always be together <33

Me and Brandon decided that we're going to stay together. I think that I made the right decision to stay with him because he treats me so good I couldnt ask for a better boyfriend. He's on a church trip right now and I miss him like crazy. I dont know what i'm going to do when he leaves and I can't talk to him. Atlteast we'll be able to write letters to eachother.

I've been thinking lately
That you and me
Yes we can make it
Just ride with me
Roll with me
I'm in love with you baby

so..Abby and I are going to go get tattoos but its going to be a surprise no one can know what it is.........hahaha right?

well I think i'm gonna get goin....talk to you all later..

have a nice week

-Trish

Currently Listening The Emancipation of Mimi By Mariah Carey see related

- We Belong Together

hey...I figured it was about time for an update.

I've been working alot lately which sucks, but atleast i'll be making money right? plus I'll need the money if I go to the warped tour and the Seether and Crossfade concert.

And I'm feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
because I know know your worth it

Brandon leaves in like a month... it sucks. And I guess he doesn't think I'll be here for him when he gets back and thinks that if we do stay together that I might do something while hes gone.Which I wouldn't cheat on him or anything because thats just mean and I like him alot But I don't want to break up with him because he's leaving. you know what I mean. But what can you do ... I guess its up to him...

Do you ever wonder what your life
Looks like through someone elses eyes?

I guess sometimes I really do wonder what people think of me...I usually think that people don't like me or think i'm a bitch or a slut or something like that. I guess thats why I get nervous or shy around people that I don't know. I guess lately I haven't really felt like doing anything..and I don't know why. It could be that I work like every day and i'm tired afterwards but I don't know.

anyways.. I'm gonna get goin ....have a good month..or week..i dont know when I'll update again

-Trish